My Fair Lady

My Fair Lady

My fair lady stands atop a mountain.
Cupped in her hands is my heart,my soul.....
hanging in da balance is evrything everything nd she knows......
She says she's confused,raring to go but she is far from it,wen will she know....
If she lets go,my heart,ma soul will be falling down the depths of eternìty.
She says she cant b mine,We cant b together,Every step she takes away frm me rips ma heart,my soul.
All this makes me feel i should hav nvr left u in da 1st place, May b i nvr realizd she was ma angel,the one whu was made fer me.
There was a time,thr was a place entwined in it were our fates.Deep inside (her heart)lies lov fer me inexplicable,unbeleivablesurpassing all boundaries.
But (Like a dormant volcano) it waits, it w8's fer a surge frm within.
i dnt knw if i luv her,she thinks she does.
Hanging in the balance is everything.

An attempt at crude poetry

Love and Desires

A few words for you my love,
From the deepest and darkest corners of my heart....
They say a picture is worth a thousand words,
But i know i can prove them wrong.......

Lust is a bygone,Love is what i seek.....
Black or white is immaterial,
Lean or not I do not care,
Beauty,Brain nor riches is what i seek,
Its all about perception,
Something many lack.

I hold myself high,
I am a prince,no less
The whole world knows,
Beggars cant be choosers.

I have never felt this way before,
Maybe i never felt for anyone before.
My heart is heavy,
It yearns so,
Is this the feeling of euphoria ,or is it not.

I can feel your mellow breath on my lips,
Drawing passion with every sigh.
Your soft lips,Your bosom divine.
I am confused,I am so confused,
I wonder when this delirium will end,will it ever???

My stomach feels like a twisted rope,
My head seems to be exploding,
When will this feeling ever go away,
How would it ever stop.
For matters of the heart even the strongest
fall to their knees,
But i would not resign,I would hold on.

Let the heavens unleash their wrath &
All hell break loose,
I would be invincible,
As long as i have you,You my love by my side.

I would have you on a pedestal & announce to the world,
That i am in love with you my darling,You my Love.

These petty hindrances of life mean nothing, no more,
All i seek, are those instances of proximity
& feelings of sheer delight.

The fire in my heart & the thirst in my lips,
Are nothing but standing testimony,
To the flame in my ribs.
Showing how eager this innocent heart is !!!!!


Till death do us apart,I would b yours my love,Yours forever........
Breathless and anxious,in the wake of the night,
Your thoughts haunt me,Like my shadow behind.
i wish i had a reason,
to pen this subtle treason.

It is said Love can do wonders,
But i wonder how I jot,
without any muse,
Or damsel to appreciate my fare.

Alas!! Its desparation,Though it comes from the heart,
For no sober man would else jot his blunders.
I know not of the complications of what life has in store,
Although i know i would not hinder,Once i have you,ur heart,ur soul.
These poetic nuances ,they come to me in a flash,
And they go away easily ,as the sand in my hand.
The harder i try to hold on,
the faster it seems to fall
This poem is for you,You my Angel,
wherever you are.......
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This is how it all started....My first poem n undoubtedly my best.......It will always remain closest to my heart,and i will cherish these memories forever.

Life

Life is more like shards of glass,
Shinest on the sides,But drawing blood when touched,
And in all entirety,they would simply reflect.
B'coz a persons life is made no different,
than the karma of his doing

Time & tide waiteth for none,
But breaking barriers is what makes life more fun.

All things come full circle,
so would our blessed lives.
As noone lives forever,
Each must one day die.
Death i am not afraid of,
But the living dead i dread,
As nothing is more painful
Than living for nothing at all.
Careless Carefree i wander,Mingling with the crowd,
A few worthless consonants,
summed up in a trice.
Without no rhyme or reason,
I wander astray,looking for an angel,searching for my queen.
It seems like fate betrays me,
At every step i trip ,I fall.
Bruised and heartbroken i wonder how long i could toil.
Pain,suffering and anguish i've surpassed.
These uncanny scars of the past,they do not heal,they do not let me pass.

Winds of Change

I dunno where i am headed......i know wat i want.....
i just dunno how to get it....Disillusioned yet pampered i am......
yes dats wat i am......
Life has never been better but i still dunno how to make the most of it.......
Drugs r out....so is booze......cant quit smoking coz dats all i have........
It helps me kill time though i know its just killin me.....softly but surely.........
Fcuked in the head..,....,Fcuked in da head dats wat i am....
Seems like i am gettin nowhere wen i thot i was making strides.....
Just keep running in circles........Love is not meant for me......
I've learnt the hard way.....I always wondered y i cudnt take it......
Now i know y.....Now !!!!
A tad too late
....ha......
I guess its Never too late...
Its almost like i've lost my identity.......N am startin from scrap....
Buildin new bonds.......new memories......I ride along further down the "Highway"-My life......
Never lookin back.....
Not stoppin at the signs.......
i just go on....
on n on.......
Maybe i am running away......
Maybe i was never strong enough.....
maybe i never had wat it takes....Alas the demons in me....i've lost to....but now they r gone...Gone forever....
There is so much of the past i wanna take wit me.....
but i cant,so i wont.....
I start fresh......
The story of my life starts now.....
On a high.....unlike one i've ever had.....
Unable to comprehend....Now i think wit my heart n my head....unbiased unlike ever before....
Like a phoenix i rise .....Stronger than ever before.......
Uncorrupted,Innocent...like an infant.....
I seek to learn the ways of the world.....all over again....
Life is beautiful n u dont to reason y.......
Beleive.....dats the key.....
Stick to ur guts...ur intuition........
Wen somethin's on ur mind.....let it be known....
Let the world judge u fer wat u really r.......
wat u always wanted to be......
and wat u've become.
Pain n pleasure go hand in hand.....2 sides of the same coin they r.......
Hate the bad love the good.....Live by ur virtues n not fer ur inconsequential self......
'Coz in the bigger plan of things .....
dats all dat matters n dats wat stays.
Nothin else,no1 else should raise a finger........
Only the chorus of applause ....dat......dat shud be all.
Relaxed n focussed i should be.....hahaha.....quite a hypocrisy.
Deny none....Defy nothing....Just Live on....Just Live on.
I look around eagerly.....fer those pair of eyes......
Those eyes in which i can see me.....my love ,n gratitude.....
The seach ends in da mirror .....dats wen i realise.......i have everything....everything yet i cry,i brood,i sulk as if everything was lost.....n nothing was mine.

A New Beginning
Today i die......i let go.....
Of things i've thot that mattered most.....
I wanna put to test the test of time........
Check if wounds heal or deepen.....
Do something good for once.....appreciate true love as it comes blatant n on my face.....
I would never do wat he has done.....
I would never wait for so long,do so much gud n expect nothing in return....I lie....I lie.....
So often it is a habit.....I lack all dignity n self esteem......
Evil n stone hearted though i may seem.....All i need is goodness n grace n not love,
The biggest mistake in my life it has been......ive failed to comprehend myself,me.
Thank god its early......thank god its early.....Confusing love for grace all along......
i've failed misearably.......Caused too much pain n anguish to everyone n everything around.....
I've never had a smile worthy of me.......
Never has been a tear spent fer me not been a waste.....
Cursed my life all along wen it was me just me......
Not someone...or something...just me.....
I dunno if its too late...a certain optimism i feel....drives me on.....ebbs me further.
Y did i live in this palace of mirrors....?Surrounded by me....just me.....just me.
Now i wanna break free...i will....i just will....
I need to forsake this sickness....this disease....
'Coz it derides my heart,my soul,everything that i could be.....
My ambitions,my goals have always been distant ,shrouded with 'may-be's'......
But that ive risen.....i know they r....n they will always be....ive never felt stronger......never felt so gud to be me.......
Tonight my mask comes off....For the entire world to see......
Scarred and bruised though my face cud be......
Taunted n tainted fer all to see....
I will fight......I willl be.....
Face that hurdle ,lose my psuedo personality.
Self realisation.....some say.
A painfull death no less.....is wat i feel....
I vow to give time to my self.....bounded to face the demons in me....
I hope i am not addicted to anything....coz then harder it will be.....bounded to face the demon...."me"....Deep inside of me....
Wat i write is but random....sense n reason abandons it alll....
I write b'coz then i would know i was like this....i will know how i will be....
Someday this midlife crisis.....will mint me millions.....
with a smug on my face.....i wud think of "me.
They say wat u need u get......want u want u already have....
The universe n astronomy still bewilder me......my first love though they might be......
i had forsaken them.....forgotten their beauty ,their wonders...n every other eon of space wud fascinate me.......
Shaky in the knees.....in awe....i wud be....
Its time to appreciate life fer it makes for quite a masterpiece,
To appreciate the finer nuances n live in full elements.
Depressed n sad i should never be....Stone hearted that i claim to be.........Stone hearted that i claim to be.

Love Aint Boon Nor Sin

Love aint boon nor sin,
Loathed n dreaded that it is.
One more reminder that it bewilders us all,
Makes us joyous n cherished even though we fall
I lay here......Hoping,wanting,desperate,
Love drives ppl insane,Changes the meaning of life itself.
Is it worth wishing for ?worth dying for....?
Da answer lies within it is said....
But deep inside of me i am dying craving for dat someone special..
Confused n bewildered i may seem naive innocent i am.....
Dry n lifeless life seems to drag by...Relentless...Hurdle after hurdle i seek to surpass .
I seek solace compassion n some care....
A tear or two i shed....Useless absolutely useless....
Irritated agitated n completely pointless...
Stricken by pain....Responsibilities,obligations r things each has to live with...
If only i cud find something dat makes me truly happy joyous indeed...
Life wud have new meaning new destinations perhaps.....
It makes me want to shed a tear....I havent for a long time....
Stonehearted ive become failing to appreciate the intricacies of life.....
Emotions r no more than gimmicks for me.....
Love n affection seem to be obligations no more no less....
Life is taking me for a ride..
Gruesome n torturing...Da likes of which ive never seen...
Ive always had a mask on....But Tonite it comes off....
Famished n anguished da real me comes on....But this cant last forever.....
It cannot go on....N so its back to the psuedo me...
Back to my cursed life cursed b'coz no less it seems.......
I pen in frustration....For some desperation it may seem.